interview medsi / result final matrikulasi

hurmm..rini 20th may 2009 fie g tebiu medsi, amek tesl kat UKM..pg2 kul 7.50am betolak dr umah..smpai ukm lam kul 8.15am..tros nmpk kapten..da la dia pakai suar itam, baju pink..fie br je rancang nak pakai long skirt ngan kemeja pink..nseb baek x pakai..lau x da cam kapel lak ngan dia..ahakz..dady g sembang sat ngan ayah kapten bab interbiu stat kul 9am..daftar 30minit b4..x gentleman lgsg kapten..dia biar fie melangok kat luar krete ayah dia, pastu dia dok rileks ngan air cond lam krete..hampeh...fie tebiu kat blik mikro 1, kapten kat mikro 6..lam blik fie ade 12 org & i'm da 10th person..lam sume org tu, fie yg kne tebiu sat jew..agak mencabar soklan nyer..but i got through it..best gak..rancak berborak..hurmm..but i dun wanna teach english..i want math..hopefully pat laa..lau x pat..fie persue accounts gak laa...hurmm..dis morning everything was going on well..but once my dad noe my results..it made him quite upset..i knew my result since da day b4, & i was not very pleasant with it..but when my dad noe..by juz looking at his face..i noe dat he's dissapointed..it's not dat i did very bad..i got quite gud results..but it's juz not wat i targetted..i'm a bit frust rite now eventhough my interview was great..i dunno..i'm mad at myself 4 not doing my best & made my parents feel like dat..uurggh!!...GOD!!...I"M SO MESSED UP!!!..i thought i've changed..but i guess not all da way yet..sumtimes..maybe i need 'a kick on my ass' then maybe i move...hurmm..i'm not in a good mood today...i'm out..